Balagan "Cirque of the World"

Aaaaaaaaaaa..!!!

If only you know how much i want to watch this cirque soo badly..

Especially with the "half lady" on the show..!!!!

If only i can show or tell you how much i'm looking forward to see something like this..

It's never the same..

It's a lifetime chance..

And i should give it up..?

Already..?

Am i a pusher..

or no quitter..?

Damn..!!

I know i'll regret this someday..

But i gotta be considered with people around me..

Damn..!!

If only i can tell you how hard my hearts and brains fighting each other..

Maybe it's time for me to give in..

Maybe it's not the right time for me..

Maybe i have learn to hold back..

God..!!

I'm trying to give myself the best explanation and grounds..

Why i'm not fighting for this show..

Time to take a break..?

It's the best getaway..!!

Consideration to other might be the best answer i can possibly take..

So, i'm letting it go..

This time..

Only this time..

Hope i was taking the right decision..

Love,

C.