Devastating.

As Indonesian people,

me..

gotta celebrate this so called hijri new year..

am i spelling it right..?

whatever..hehehe..

got to admit,

that this is my first time spending this public holiday,

here..

in jakarta..

and i'm quite shock at first..

never seen jakarta so quiet like this..

there's no traffic jam as far as i can see..

i stayed at Hyatt Hotel for a couple nights..

me and my family..

it's a family time, right..?

meanwhile..

me and my friends,

come up with another plan..

my sister was supposed to go abroad this tuesday..

somehow..

they still didn't have their visas..

which is super great, right..

however..

me, venny and sharon..

planning to go to bali on holiday..

and skipped school for only two days..

hehehehe..

we arranged something like..

quicksilver cruise, which something i'm exciting the most..

and waterbom..

they've got this new water slide..

and rock bar..

and of course, seafood..

hehehe..

no matter how bad i'm allergic to it..

okay..

so i'm terribly exciting..

it could be the first time..

i'm traveling with my la salle bitches..

but...

out of nowhere..

one of them gave me a call on the other night..

telling me that she couldn't go..

..........

for such a..

silly reason for me..

it was very sudden..

and unexpected..

this journey..

came with my savings..

it might be easy for some parents to cancel it..

regardless how much money they've spends..

unlike me..

i have no income...

it takes unnecessary sacrifices..

to have such a journey..

sorry to say..

but this is enough..

i'll never ever ever go..

hell..

even just to plan to travel with you again..

i was realized..

maybe you're not kind of a person i could trust...

okay..

maybe i'm too hard on this..

maybe it's not you..

it's your parents..

which more scarier..

than you and i think about..

so..

sorry is all i can say right now..

xoxox,

C.