2010 resolution.

okay..maybe its kinda late to make 2010 resolution list..but its never too late to make a change, eh..??okay, so..its 2010, so at least i have to make 10 lists..

okay, here we go..10..its quite a lot number..there's so much things i like to accomplish in my life, actually..lets start from number one..

1. im definitely have to lose my weight..no matter how..im joining esmod with 43 kgs weight, and im graduated with 52ish kgs..wow!!esmod really does gives me soo much things..lol..

2. i have to make any kind of improvement either with my job life or school life..i mean..theyre both my dream..but i cant do both at the same time, right..?okay, maybe i can..i just have to figure out how..right now..im not even getting closer with both of them..ive already sending my resume like..more than 20 times..and im still not getting any closer..and about my school life..i have to let it go i guess..there's too much things gets in my way..tried to solve them, and another problem came..but this time..totally have no chances..

3. i started to become this impulsive buyer..and i dont want to become any like that..maybe i have a very high demand when it comes about shopping..shoes i mean..but lately its not only about shoes..its almost about everything..shoes, bags, clothes, accessories, beauty product, literally everything..and i have to stop it..!!i start buy things with someone else's money..gee..!!its definitely not me..!!dont know what possessed me..im really started to become a fashion freak..dont wanna be another becky bloomwood..gotta stop this immediately..or at least arranged it and use it more wisely..

4. im intend to get angry very easily these days..maybe im some sort of bored with my neighbors or my life..so i just simply blame on others..its not fair..but it just happend..maybe i have to start to hang out with friends more often..instead of stuck in the same room and situation all the time..i need to find a new routine..

5. basically, i never finished what i have started..in most of my private lesson or maybe course..i never technically finished it..it something i have to change for sure..so..yap..finished what ive started..

6. start to thankful for what i have now..technically im very very grateful for what i already have..but then im start to moaning..i really have to be happy for what i dont have and be thankful for what i have..

7. life is not easy..we all know it very nicely..and i just found out that its not always about what i like and what i want to do..maybe i have to do what i dont like to get what i like..life works that way right..??so, i have to do everything to get closer to my dream..and dont complaining too much..you're tired, he's tired, she's tired, everyone tired to hear my complain..

8. go green thingy.i have to support this go green things more seriously.which mean, totally no plastic bag if i go to supermarket, i have my own plastic bag and go green bag from aksara right?thats more than enough for a one day shopping..start to brings my own tumbler.. every-time..no more 24/7 air conditioning..(can i still have my christmas lamp on all the time?and lappie?)ill figure out later..

9. grow up! no more being childish and crybaby..!!its soo last year..try to focus on what happens and whats your aim..solve any problem instead of avoiding it..think more mature and wise..be more patient in facing cruelty of life..

10. open up myself and try to make a friend..really this time..dont being such a pain-in-the-ass..and maybe ill get along easily..^^

so, thats more or less my 2010 resolution..im really really going to working on it..not only i want everything get better, but also, i want to accomplish something in my life..

something that can makes my parents at least proud enough of me..its been years..and years..that i had filled with disappointment and empty hope..now its really time for me to show them something..shows them the result of their upbringing during my 22 years of life..

but, despite the whole resolution things..not to forget i also have a wish list..heheheh..

- start to saving for my own louboutin.

- find over-the-knee boots.

- get a new bag.

- have my hair dyed.

- participate in some fashion shows.

- decorating my room (hope ill get a new room this year)

- find myself a several nice blazers.

- buy a new shoes (what im expecting for the moment, zara, pull and bear, aldo)

- somehow, buy harman kardon soundstick II.

- freelancing as a make up artist.

- getting better with this blog thingy.

- start to make my own fashion blog.

- either get a job or go to school.

- being a fashion stylist or personal shopper or whatever.

wohooo..got so much wish-list-things..mostly about "beautiful garbage"..cant really avoid them, eh?

so..whatever will happen this year..please..let it happen..