So, how am i gonna be able to continue the program without the other..?Quite frankly, it stressed me out..it's fuckin stressed me..i'm desperately need this program, i really, really need this..i keep thinking to find the way out..it doesn't have to be the best one..as long as there's a way, i'll take it..for sure, without any hesitation nor doubt..!!
Do i really have to take the intensive program..?Maybe my body and my mind's still allow it, but my schedule doesn't..WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO..??!!!!
I don't really know what i feel right now, angry, sad, disappointed, hopeless..everything into one..it's unbearable..it just, im feeling really sad, and disappointed with my classmate..maybe i dont have the right to be mad, or angry, or saying something like this..but im just mad at them..it just doesnt make any sense..!!if you're so busy or think "i just want to try"..why dont you join the extensive program from the beginning..!!
It's totally not nice, giving people hope then you blown it..!!maybe this is not important for you, but this is irrevocably important for me, and maybe for some other people as well, so pleaseee, im begging you, don't you ruin it nor playing with it..!!it's really rude, selfish and inconsiderate..!!you may play around with your life..but dont playing with life that wasn't yours to waste..!!It aint time for playing around anymore..i'm chasing by time which wasn't my authority to control it..i'm wasting to much time already..
And now, you're playing with my time..and i hate it..i despise it..!!you have know idea, what i have to sacrifice for this, what i have to do to make it works, what it costs me..!!
It took me almost everything..!!I sacrifies a lot for this..!!And you..all of you, just keep looking for excuses..that actually not even exists..i'm tired listening to all the lies you made..
I'm not a person who gave up easily..but i'm getting tired to always trying fixed up things that'll end up with another mess..this is really not the right time..i always have to come up with another back up plan..and another back up plan..and so on..i'm running out of back up plan this time..i'd better come up with something in a month..
So, i've had a little chat with Rani Sitompul last night, she's one of my friend and classmate at CCF..we're discussing about our longer course in CCF..and turns out that most of our classmate wil not continue with their program..so, there's only..maybe 6 or 7 people left..which mean, im not sure if they're still gonna open the program..surely they're not opening a new class without 11 people in minimum..
So, how am i gonna be able to continue the program without the other..?Quite frankly, it stressed me out..it's fuckin stressed me..i'm desperately need this program, i really, really need this..i keep thinking to find the way out..it doesn't have to be the best one..as long as there's a way, i'll take it..for sure, without any hesitation nor doubt..!!
Do i really have to take the intensive program..?Maybe my body and my mind's still allow it, but my schedule doesn't..WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO..??!!!!
I don't really know what i feel right now, angry, sad, disappointed, hopeless..everything into one..it's unbearable..it just, im feeling really sad, and disappointed with my classmate..maybe i dont have the right to be mad, or angry, or saying something like this..but im just mad at them..it just doesnt make any sense..!!if you're so busy or think "i just want to try"..why dont you join the extensive program from the beginning..!!
It's totally not nice, giving people hope then you blown it..!!maybe this is not important for you, but this is irrevocably important for me, and maybe for some other people as well, so pleaseee, im begging you, don't you ruin it nor playing with it..!!it's really rude, selfish and inconsiderate..!!you may play around with your life..but dont playing with life that wasn't yours to waste..!!It aint time for playing around anymore..i'm chasing by time which wasn't my authority to control it..i'm wasting to much time already..
And now, you're playing with my time..and i hate it..i despise it..!!you have know idea, what i have to sacrifice for this, what i have to do to make it works, what it costs me..!!
So, how am i gonna be able to continue the program without the other..?Quite frankly, it stressed me out..it's fuckin stressed me..i'm desperately need this program, i really, really need this..i keep thinking to find the way out..it doesn't have to be the best one..as long as there's a way, i'll take it..for sure, without any hesitation nor doubt..!!
Do i really have to take the intensive program..?Maybe my body and my mind's still allow it, but my schedule doesn't..WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO..??!!!!
I don't really know what i feel right now, angry, sad, disappointed, hopeless..everything into one..it's unbearable..it just, im feeling really sad, and disappointed with my classmate..maybe i dont have the right to be mad, or angry, or saying something like this..but im just mad at them..it just doesnt make any sense..!!if you're so busy or think "i just want to try"..why dont you join the extensive program from the beginning..!!
It's totally not nice, giving people hope then you blown it..!!maybe this is not important for you, but this is irrevocably important for me, and maybe for some other people as well, so pleaseee, im begging you, don't you ruin it nor playing with it..!!it's really rude, selfish and inconsiderate..!!you may play around with your life..but dont playing with life that wasn't yours to waste..!!It aint time for playing around anymore..i'm chasing by time which wasn't my authority to control it..i'm wasting to much time already..
And now, you're playing with my time..and i hate it..i despise it..!!you have know idea, what i have to sacrifice for this, what i have to do to make it works, what it costs me..!!
It took me almost everything..!!I sacrifies a lot for this..!!And you..all of you, just keep looking for excuses..that actually not even exists..i'm tired listening to all the lies you made..
I'm not a person who gave up easily..but i'm getting tired to always trying fixed up things that'll end up with another mess..this is really not the right time..i always have to come up with another back up plan..and another back up plan..and so on..i'm running out of back up plan this time..i'd better come up with something in a month..
So, i've had a little chat with Rani Sitompul last night, she's one of my friend and classmate at CCF..we're discussing about our longer course in CCF..and turns out that most of our classmate wil not continue with their program..so, there's only..maybe 6 or 7 people left..which mean, im not sure if they're still gonna open the program..surely they're not opening a new class without 11 people in minimum..
So, how am i gonna be able to continue the program without the other..?Quite frankly, it stressed me out..it's fuckin stressed me..i'm desperately need this program, i really, really need this..i keep thinking to find the way out..it doesn't have to be the best one..as long as there's a way, i'll take it..for sure, without any hesitation nor doubt..!!
Do i really have to take the intensive program..?Maybe my body and my mind's still allow it, but my schedule doesn't..WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO..??!!!!
I don't really know what i feel right now, angry, sad, disappointed, hopeless..everything into one..it's unbearable..it just, im feeling really sad, and disappointed with my classmate..maybe i dont have the right to be mad, or angry, or saying something like this..but im just mad at them..it just doesnt make any sense..!!if you're so busy or think "i just want to try"..why dont you join the extensive program from the beginning..!!
It's totally not nice, giving people hope then you blown it..!!maybe this is not important for you, but this is irrevocably important for me, and maybe for some other people as well, so pleaseee, im begging you, don't you ruin it nor playing with it..!!it's really rude, selfish and inconsiderate..!!you may play around with your life..but dont playing with life that wasn't yours to waste..!!It aint time for playing around anymore..i'm chasing by time which wasn't my authority to control it..i'm wasting to much time already..
And now, you're playing with my time..and i hate it..i despise it..!!you have know idea, what i have to sacrifice for this, what i have to do to make it works, what it costs me..!!
So, how am i gonna be able to continue the program without the other..?Quite frankly, it stressed me out..it's fuckin stressed me..i'm desperately need this program, i really, really need this..i keep thinking to find the way out..it doesn't have to be the best one..as long as there's a way, i'll take it..for sure, without any hesitation nor doubt..!!
Do i really have to take the intensive program..?Maybe my body and my mind's still allow it, but my schedule doesn't..WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO..??!!!!
I don't really know what i feel right now, angry, sad, disappointed, hopeless..everything into one..it's unbearable..it just, im feeling really sad, and disappointed with my classmate..maybe i dont have the right to be mad, or angry, or saying something like this..but im just mad at them..it just doesnt make any sense..!!if you're so busy or think "i just want to try"..why dont you join the extensive program from the beginning..!!
It's totally not nice, giving people hope then you blown it..!!maybe this is not important for you, but this is irrevocably important for me, and maybe for some other people as well, so pleaseee, im begging you, don't you ruin it nor playing with it..!!it's really rude, selfish and inconsiderate..!!you may play around with your life..but dont playing with life that wasn't yours to waste..!!It aint time for playing around anymore..i'm chasing by time which wasn't my authority to control it..i'm wasting to much time already..
And now, you're playing with my time..and i hate it..i despise it..!!you have know idea, what i have to sacrifice for this, what i have to do to make it works, what it costs me..!!
It took me almost everything..!!I sacrifies a lot for this..!!And you..all of you, just keep looking for excuses..that actually not even exists..i'm tired listening to all the lies you made..
I'm not a person who gave up easily..but i'm getting tired to always trying fixed up things that'll end up with another mess..this is really not the right time..i always have to come up with another back up plan..and another back up plan..and so on..i'm running out of back up plan this time..i'd better come up with something in a month..
I’m still mad and confuse, this time..really, just answer me one question, “why do they doing this?”..Seriously, most of them join this lesson for a reason, which is study abroad..and one of them planning to go abroad this august! This AUGUST!! Which mean..3 months left..?? If I was her, I’m going to stick with this program, or even maybe move into intensive program, instead of moving into extensive program..!! If you don’t understand or having a problem, try to find a way and solve it..! Rather than complaining and hang out and being sluggish..!!
It’s their problem if they’re not taking this seriously, but at least give just a little consideration with someone who really serious on this..!! I’m pissed..!! I’m really tired..and I’m still trying to see it in a more positive way..BUT I JUST COULDN’T FIND ONE SINGLE REASON TOO SEE IT POSITIVELY..!! So, please..if any of you could find one for me..just tell me..! But don’t tell me to give up on this CCF things, and focus with my college..!
If it aint because of CCF, there’s no way im gonna be in La Salle right this very moment..It’s totally gonna wasting time if I have to done things one by one..i still have a pocketfuls of dreams..I know what I’m capable of..hence, I’m gonna do some of it in the same time..i’m still able to take more perplexing burden in any possible way..even the hardest one..
If its mean, 4 hours a day and 5 days a week..then bring it..i’ll bear it.
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There’s nothing you can do!
This streets will make you feel brand new,
Big lights will inspire you!”
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