Idleness.

I've been abandoning my blog quite awhile.. been dealing with college and other courses stuff..my college really took much more time than what im expected..well, and it's quite drained my energy..but i still have french lessons every night, which actually im kinda sad about the whole course..CCF, it's the only place i really can forget almost about anything, and they give me time, where i can actually laugh again, after quite a long time..i was technically at ease in there..so, im literally looking forward to come in there, and to feel that feeling again..

But, the most awful part is, one of my classmate, eager to move into another class, another program i mean..i joined this course, it took lots of effort and sacrifice, and i'm waiting so long for this..and i dont think i can still continue this program with, i dont know..5 or 4 people in the class..??i need this class, i really really need it, like desperately..how am i suppose to learn french without this program anyway..

My mom and dad, somehow, told me to put my course at CCF on hold..so i can be more focus with my college, and i dont have to skip my bed time anymore..and off course, im definitely, straightly rejected it, declined it, refused it, without any second thought..im waiting this, like..for a long time already..and i'm not gonna put in on hold, anymore..nope! I'm in it, and i'm gonna go for it..doesn't matter what it took and costs..i'm pursuing my dream. Thats it!

And about my college, i havent told you anything about it yea..?Ah! i hate it actually, at first..but now, everything seems fine..!i hang out, i made friends, and i..quite enjoy it..despite, all the problems in head still arguing and nesting..gosh..i still havent find the best way out..and it keeps bothering me..i've been into lots of idleness lately..i doesn't took me long into this absentmindedness..

oh! i really gotta go to bed, im all zonked..

C.