Deliberation.

It's raining.

Perhaps the world is crying,

Watching over Israel battle against Iran,

Fighting for something which wasn't theirs.

Or maybe,

It's not the world's,

It's the tears that has been shed,

By mothers,

fathers,

brothers,

sisters,

friends..

Hoping for their families to just come home.

I like to read, can't really say a lot..but i do read..especially when it comes about true story, fiction, and another pieces about what i loves, fashion..And couple days ago, i've finished reading Mitch Albom's book..Have A Little Faith..and the book is remarkably and extraordinarily tremendous..for real..and you guys should read it..you have to!!

He write it based on true story..and from his book..it gives me too many thing..more than i could embrace..through the book, it allows me to gain something i used to have back..through the book, it teaches me what love is..and i'm talking about the real one..not just random love..through the book, it shows me, what is faith..even when you said 'i have faith', but none of us really know and understand the real meaning by faith, i think..through the book, it introduces me to some people that i don't really believe exists, until i read it..

In his book, he talks about Albert Lewis, a Jewish Rabbi, who born during World War I and World War II and also many other war..

There's plenty of little affectionate story inside it..and every time i read a new line..a new paragraph..a new chapter..i feels like something has awaken me..has called me back..i feels like..being 'slapped' over and over again..It started from something simple..

"Faith is about doing.

You are how you act,

not just how you believe."

For some of my 'close-relation', they know how i feel, i think, about church..my religion..and whats the consequences of that thought..Albert Lewis is a Rabbi not because of something or anything close to "calling"..He become a Rabbi because his love and passion of teaching..

"Adam hid in the Garden of Eden.

Moses tried to substitute his brother.

Jonah jumped a boat and was swallowed by a whale,

Man likes to run from God.

It's a tradition."

And so do i..we straying away, and we go back when we had a problem..when we need His help..not only once or twice..but for many a time..is it really a tradition..?Or do we make it into a tradition..?

"They count as they quite forget,

They are as men who have existed not,

Theirs is a loss past loss of fitful breath,

It is the second death."

So i was stupefy..and so i was hope, through this article, that Albert Lewis will not experience the second death..because as i was stunned by every word he said, and so i was being reminded in how much im in love with solitude..

I feels like someone has examine my life and scrutinized it..it prompted me to emend all the missing part in my life..this is my second change, right?I feels like i've discovered the true meaning of grace, generosity, sympathy and humanity..

And i know now, there was a man, out there, who never evaluate life based on what his got, who always being passionate in helping people, no matter how sick he was, no matter what religion they embraced, there's no boundaries between him and doing a kindness, even to someone who treated him badly..

Even when his last breath, he still helping people..and when his funeral..he made a tape for his last lecture..his life, never really about him..

C'mon, during that time..people are busy slaying jewish people..meanwhile..he's helping a non-jewish people..i'm literally saying, "what kind of people is that?"

While we're busy demanding our rights, he's busy with his obligation..

I've met a lot of people..some may nice..and some may as bitches as they can be..but one thing in common..no matter how nice they were..no matter how bitch they were..they still stacks of fat with jealousy and hundred of tricks..they're doing nice things just to have something in return..

As the world filled with many wars, they started to make a sheer wall between each others..they started to use 'yours' and 'mine' till there's no longer 'ours'..

They used to do nice thing for something, till they forget how to be nice and honest with no tricks at all..and for nothing whatsoever..

Then it started to become envy, and for those envy, they fights each other, fight with the only thing they have in common..lack of faith..

They believes in each other..but there's no faith for something what they really believes in..they dont have faith for something 'bigger'..and keep questioning something that not supposed to be asked instead..

For lack of believes in each other, they started to being independent, and forget with the needs of each other..

They're too busy to conquer the world, then it becomes each other..they destroys each other..

They're walk with their head up high, as high as the way they looking up..and never look down..they're trying to reach the sky while they're made from dust and soil..

When the only thing they're dying to conquer, the world..fighting back by flood, and earthquake..they straightly remember to God, not only for merci, but along with cursing, blaming and hateful statement..

That's what the world has become..that's what creates you..dont you think it's time to fight back..?

C.