Stalked.

I've been thinking about the 'second death'..i've talked about it on my earlier post..and it's quite haunted me..its not that i'm scared about death..and dying..or whatsoever..

Practically i was dead since the day i was born..instead of waiting for 'my death', i'm more like waiting till the day i'm reborn..and there's nothing scary about dead..seems like i scare to life rather than being dead..

However, this 'second death' is quite scares the hell out of me..and you have no idea how much im in love with this solitude..i've been living in it for years, and years..i can't just get rid of it..it's not something you can just throw away if you don't like it..

Even though i'm trying to become a 'better' person..it's still not easy..I can't split for just one fuckin' second..

God! I'm drowning..

C.