An Official Prologue.

I've never officially introduce myself..Just a brief story about who am i and what i'm doing with my life..

I'm screwing up my life..!!Yea..seriously..!!LOL..

I'm not a jakarta-born-girl..but i do grew up in jakarta..and still..i spent most of my childhood in jakarta, unlike my two big sisters..

I'm not born with a 'what-a-girl-should-be' talent..in other way..im far from feminine, girly, cute and stuff..in fact..i'm a little hyperactive..i like to keep active..keep moving..annoying..?!Totally..!!!

I'm just way too hyper, and out of control..i run a lot..like, A LOT!and i fight boys as well..it's seems simple and easier back then..i just ran, i fell, i stood back up, and back to ran again..doesn't matter how many times i fell, i always go back running again..

Went to Junior High didn't changed me a lot..i can't get too far with problem..maybe there was something..there are something..it's like..i'm bound..if only i could describe it, how tight i'm bound..

However, i started to draw..if you ever watched Lassie, i was like..totally..totally love the movie..and my first sketch was Lassie..wasn't so good of course..but i drew him like all the time..

Maybe you already see me as a girl who doesn't have any feminine side whatsoever..despite that, i do play barbie and paper dolls with my sisters..i really do..so, try to believe it..LOL..

I'm not very close with my big sister, err..the second one..its because she's only 18 months older, i think..and if you believe in feng shui, or any chinese myths and folks..i was born in dragon year while she was born in lion year..so, we can't really really get along very well..

Unlike my biggest sister, she's 3 years older than me..and maybe the distance that makes me more close with her than the other one..besides, she was born in mouse/rat year..LOL..she's started to play imagination with me..since we're playing with paper dolls a lot..she started this imagination game..she drew a cloths in her imagination..and i started to do the same thing..

Started on a paper, and later on..my dad gave me a book..it's a note book actually..but i used it to draw instead..i made lots of cloths sketches, it took me three books..and i love to draw clothes ever since..

I was born in science family, i can tell..my dad's a doctor, a pharmacist actually..and my mom took engineering..my big sister is very good in science, and the eldest one's really good in chemical..and me..i'm good in science and damn good in math..sounds like i'm exaggerated it..LOL..but that's the truth..

Not only me, both my math teachers in Junior High, also admit it..one of them told me to become an accounting..and my math teachers in Senior High do the same thing as well..

But i'm in love with art..i love to draw..to imagine something..through imagination, i'm out of the box..and i decided to go to fashion school..

When i was in Senior High, my mom sent me to a fashion course..i learn to draw a figure in a proportional measurement..i learn the most basic pattern in clothing..

Well, it's already my nature i guess..i didn't finished both of them..either Senior High School and Fashion Course..i never really really finished what i've started..no matter how much i love it..God! I'm fighting with this habit..

While i'm in Fashion Course, i had this..what should i call her..she's not a lecture..neither my teacher..well..teacher is the closest one..Her name is Patricia, Ms.Patricia, back then..

She's really friendly, kind, and funny person..once she told me a wisdom..

"Before you fight the world, you should fight yourself."

I never really know what it means, and i'm too shy..LOL..yea..too shy to ask that time..LOL..i can't believe what i'm saying..LOL..

Until one day..can't tell you exactly when..but i just found out what it means..and it changes me..A LOT..and now, it runs through my veins already..it's strengthen me..it gives me more power and makes me wiser..

So, i didn't finished my Senior-Hi..i went straight up to ESMOD..i never said that i wanted to become a designer nor a boutique owner, or else..i never practically saying what i wanted to become..i did say, i wanted to go to fashion school..fashion's not always about designing or being a designer..but my mom did think so..so i ended up went to ESMOD..

I'm not telling that i regret it..ESMOD does gives me lots..lots of new lesson, experiences, and knowledges..ESMOD does changes me A LOT..i took a 3 years program in fashion design and pattern making..and of course, i graduated..

I became workaholic because of ESMOD, i learnt to understand 'give your best in everything', i realized that 24hours/day wasn't enough and is never enough, i started to aware and feel that time is very important, i felt that hesitation is only brought you nothing but disappointing, i started to try to 'do anything i can do without delaying', i started to know and to feel 'what's work-life gonna looks like and feels like', and many other things..all because of ESMOD..

I met different type of people as well, not so many of them is nice and fun to be with..but i do find and make friends in there..and i also know the meaning of 'togetherness'..we through all the laugh, smile, cry, pain, pressure, mad, dateline together..

Graduated from ESMOD, i still couldn't forget this 'push' and i couldn't just get rid of it as well..so i went to La Salle College last April and took Fashion Business major..i'm planning to obtain a Master Degree in this field..

In La Salle, there's a different level of difficulty..in ESMOD, it's always about practice, while in La Salle it's about theory..after spent three years in ESMOD without any practice of memorizing..and now, i have to memorized like 10 chapters with more than 150 terminology..err..for one subject..how can i'm not freaked out..

Not only memorizing..La Salle also applying a very different program and system with everything i've ever had..so, in another word..i'm fitting in..i'm trying to adapt with a new environment..

So, basically..that's just a brief story about what i'm doing with my life..It's gonna get more complicated and longer if i have to mention about my personality and interests..another time, maybe..LOL..

C.